Friday, February 10, 2006

Still Sick...

And still pissed off about it.

I wish I had a nice story to share. But who would I be sharing it with??? Hmmm, always interesting when you think of the people out there who may read what you are writing.

Having a blog gives you a certain anonymity that you don't get in your everyday life. You can say things you normally wouldn't say. You can act in a way you normally wouldn't act.

You can make the whole world believe you are the sweetest person in the world or a complete bitch, all by the way you write. You can come across as a very intelligent writer, or a blathering idiot. I'm usually the latter. I don't mind for the most part as being thought of in that way. But when it comes to my job and my family I do want people to be able to say that I do both jobs well. I am blond, I do have focus issues (look something shiny)... Where was I? Oh yeah, I remember, I still like to consider myself an intelligent person. A caring person, a loving person even.

Others don't see me that way, maybe it's because I don't let them see me that way. Very few people get to see all of me. My husband of course knows the real me. He is my biggest supporter. He is the one I can always count on. His mom is my second biggest. She is my rock. I don't know what I would do without her. I have never felt the need to play the game of who is the bestest daughter-in-law. I will let my other sister-in-laws fight over that one. I just know that my MIL came into my life when I was teenager and has helped shape me into the adult I am today. She became a wonderful role model for me when I didn't have much to model myself after at home.

I try to be true to myself. Whether I am talking online, or in person. I just want to be myself, and to live my life. Not the life of a fictional person. There I go rambling again.

Oh well, all is good. My head will eventually feel better, I will be able to smell and taste again, and I will have energy to walk up stairs without hacking up a lung one of these days. :)

And to the friends who know the real me, I appreciate each and every one of you.


KellyC_bb said...

Yoikes, I hate the sick thing, mostly because of missing my workouts.
3 weeks in December almost did me in, then it seemed to take so long to get my strength back. Bleah.

Sending out healthy vibes!

leannwoo said...

Thanks for the healthy vibes. I hope it's on it's way out. Things started breaking up yesterday. GROSS! But that is good. The stuff coming out of my lungs and sinus' are disgusting. :) I won't go into detail! LOL!

I can't wait to start working off some of this goo! I always feel better when I am working out!