I have always thought that I was motivated. But I have realized that in the past I let too many things determine my motivation.
I finally got my act together in the last two weeks and rediscovered working out and how much I really do enjoy it. I had gotten my act together and was being extremely good about getting my workouts in. And then it happened.
Just like always but different. I got sick. In the past it’s been many different things, from strange migraines, to dizziness and shortness of breath. Things that were never really diagnosed to things that I had to have surgery for. But there have always been things that stopped me from working out. In the past I would get upset. I would say "Why does this always happen to me?" (btw this time around it is my kidney that is acting up) But something strange has happened this time around. I’m not saying that. I’m still excited about working out, even though I haven’t been able to for the last four days. Why is that?
I realized that I have changed inside. That is the important thing. I know that this won’t last forever. Probably not even a whole week. I am drinking cranberry juice like crazy to help flush out the kidney and help it get better, I have taken all alcohol out of the equation and I am focusing on getting better. Another strange thing. I am not complaining about it. Not even about the pain. I realized that yesterday when my husband turned to me and asked me if I was alright. I hadn’t been complaining, but he knew I was in pain, maybe I had made a funny face or something. But I hadn’t been vocalizing the pain. Just dealing with it.
Ok I’ve rambled on long enough.
I am just excited to still be excited. To be happy and to realize that things are great! This is something I wish everyone could experience. Being happy and content with what you have, not feeling like you are missing something or needing something. Enjoying life with your family.
Have a wonderful day!