My daughter has been nagging me for quite some time now. It appears she feels I have a self esteem issue. Yeah, Really? Ya think?
So anyway, I was telling her on the way to school this morning that I am working on the reprogramming my mind. She was all excited. I told her that I have been telling myself, writing notes to myself, and talking out loud to myself for a few days now. All the things I want to believe about myself. She was excited. She said, I have been telling you for years to do something. I said I didn't know before really how to do it. She was then telling me that she could have told me how. OK. Whatever! :)
So now here is what I am telling myself:
I AM HEALTHY!
I AM FIT!
I AM ENERGETIC!
I AM SPIRITUAL!
I LOVE TO WORKOUT!
Guess what...for the last two days I have been walking around with a smile on my face. Despite the fact that I am on some serious steroids that are giving me raging headaches, sore throats and stomach upset. Making me so hungry my stomach is feeling empty at all times! But I am eating healthy foods without even thinking about it. Why? Because I am telling myself constantly that I am healthy. A healthy person isn't going to reach for crap. A fit person isn't going to tell themselves that it's ok to eat chips because I fill like crap. I actually went to reach for some chips last night and stopped short. I realized that that wouldn't give me what I needed. I grabbed a handful of whole wheat crackers and munched on about 6 of them. That was all I needed! Good to go!
So I am excited. It is suppose to take 21 days to form a habit. 90% of everything we do or say during the day comes from habit. So I am making new habits! This is very exciting for me!
Even though I am still sick and having trouble breathing I keep telling myself that I AM HEALTHY! It is amazing. I am not focusing so much on my pains, but on my positives. I am sitting straighter, walking faster, drinking way more water (the pills make me thirsty though).
Exciting times. I can't tell you how great I feel. Even better than when I was 30lbs lighter. I was lighter, but still had the attitude of a fat person. No wonder I gained it back. Stupid!